Update: First Encounter

Update! I have seen A twice since he got back to the states *tears*. So much has happened and I honestly am so happy and feeling so much light and love in my life. Here is how the first trip went:

So, I got  on a plane. Let me tell you, I love flying, but flying and also suffering from chronic pain issues, is not the best situation. Oh well, I survived. When I got to NC, I ran to the nearest bathroom because I wanted to freshen up and make sure my hair was as wild and big as can be. I was so nervous that I had to pee like 2 times. I also wanted there to be some suspense for him. So I made him wait a little while all the other people went to baggage claim I was in the bathroom giving myself  a pep talk and high five in the mirror (I plot).

I found the stairs and I remember feeling weak in my legs and I thought: is this the fibromyalgia or my love for A!? Then I saw his face...I ran to him and he hugged me so tight. It was honestly as if the last two years were not spent physically apart. I cried, and he pretended not to. He grabbed my hand and off we went. 

For the record, NC is fucking beautiful. I love home, but my God there are trees and greenery everywhere! It was humid but not like Oklahoma humid. I dig it. 

A and I slipped right back into what we had always been; best friends. We laughed, we shared music with each other, we reunited in all the best ways possible. He took me to the zoo, he knows me. Here are some pics....

{currently} So I disappeared....

I wrote a blog post and it disappeared before I could share it. Which is funny becasue that is exactly what I did. So now I'm annoyed because I don't want to rewrite what I had. Major points in 3, 2, 1....

A lot has happened

A lot of good

I started grad school

A is and has been back in AMERICA (bless!) 

We saw each other, it was pure magic (tears) 

I started Grad school (double bless!) 

I'm on disability (better than I thought it would be) 

This project went on the back burner for a few reasons, but I am back in action. So much to update and such a lovely story to continue sharing. To be continued.....

{Currently}

It is currently Wednesday for me and Thursday for A. He is on a training mission right now and will not be back till the end of the week, which isn't far away. However, he is in another country from where he has his cell phone provider and therefore, he has no service. Annoying, but we (I) will live.

(He texted me earlier saying that he turned his roaming on to talk to me, but that it was going to charge him a ridiculous amount. So, since I am a crazy texter, I told him I appreciated the gesture but TURN IT OFF!!! See that, financial responsibility and the prevention of a high cell phone bill because, I am a crazy texter) 

Currently, we are okay. I have been on edge the past few days so I was/am hoping the few days without talking will help. 

Currently, I am frustrated. As I mentioned, I have been on edge, especially this past week. If there is any little disagreement between A. and I, my mind runs through its filing cabinet of every fight, every mistake and every hurtful thing that happened this past year. Then I take all that filed away information and review it for the purpose of getting myself even more mad, because that is what people, who are crazy texters, do. This past year was the hardest for us and a lot of it still hurts. I am working on not holding grudges and he is working on being patient. 

Currently, he is still waiting for orders. No fly date yet. Therefore, no definitive plans for me to go see him yet. Therefore, hurry up and wait. Therefore: sad face :(

Currently, I am exhausted, and so broke form school. BUT, I LOVE it. I look forward to my career every single day. I love life, man.

XoXo,

VS