Update: First Encounter

Update! I have seen A twice since he got back to the states *tears*. So much has happened and I honestly am so happy and feeling so much light and love in my life. Here is how the first trip went:

So, I got  on a plane. Let me tell you, I love flying, but flying and also suffering from chronic pain issues, is not the best situation. Oh well, I survived. When I got to NC, I ran to the nearest bathroom because I wanted to freshen up and make sure my hair was as wild and big as can be. I was so nervous that I had to pee like 2 times. I also wanted there to be some suspense for him. So I made him wait a little while all the other people went to baggage claim I was in the bathroom giving myself  a pep talk and high five in the mirror (I plot).

I found the stairs and I remember feeling weak in my legs and I thought: is this the fibromyalgia or my love for A!? Then I saw his face...I ran to him and he hugged me so tight. It was honestly as if the last two years were not spent physically apart. I cried, and he pretended not to. He grabbed my hand and off we went. 

For the record, NC is fucking beautiful. I love home, but my God there are trees and greenery everywhere! It was humid but not like Oklahoma humid. I dig it. 

A and I slipped right back into what we had always been; best friends. We laughed, we shared music with each other, we reunited in all the best ways possible. He took me to the zoo, he knows me. Here are some pics....

Family Day.

So... where did I leave off? Oh yes... I boarded a plane. Man I really dropped the ball on keeping this thing  updated. My father took me to the airport and I was all kinds of emotional. I was emotional because I knew my dad was feeling emotional too. His "little" girl was getting on a plane to see a boy in another state [unsupervised]haha. But I think what was really causing emotion for him was the fact that this all brought back memories to when he was in the Army. My mom and dad built there marriage while my father was away training and through his deployment to Vietnam (he was gone about 2 years. I think my dad was worried that I might not be able to handle the distance, the heartache, or the struggles of this life. But, he comforted me and waited with me at the gate and watched me board the plane as I set off to figure out my future with A. 

This flight experience was fun, and exciting. But by the time I got to Oklahoma, I was tired, starving and not feeling 100%. Luckily on the flight I met a very nice lady who was going to watch her son graduate the same day. She was also flying solo and staying at the same hotel! Thank goodness for the both of us because, let me tell you, showing up to the hotel in Lawton Oklahoma at night was like a scene from a horror movie. We were able to spend the evening together and get dinner, which was nice because neither of us rented a car (the taxi drivers added to the horror flick fears, except for one very nice vet that drove me around couple times). So we stretched our legs and walked a few blocks to go eat. 

The next day was hotter than hell family day! I got up early did my make-up all pretty and my hair nice and bouncy....then I walked outside and my make up melted and my hair looked like it had never dried (frizz city). I remember being so sad because it was too hot to look any kind of pretty that day...and all I wanted was to look nice. Off to post we go. (Side note, his basic was at the same place my dad had his basic training, Fort Sill). 

So here I am in the direct sunlight watching all these new soldiers demonstrate things they had learned. and I was trying to find A in the crowd but I couldn't. At this point, I had tied my maxi dress up a little at the bottom so I could feel some sort of draft on my legs. The demos were finally over and now it was time to find A. I stood there panicked and lost for about 15 min. I lost my new friend I had made on the flight and I could not find A. Then, I suddenly felt someone crash into me and whisper the words, "It feels so good to see you". He had approached me and grabbed me so fast that I didn't even get a chance to see him. But, he finally let me go and I did finally see him, I saw my best friend and most precious love. And about an hour later I started feeling really sick. To be continued... 

{currently} So I disappeared....

I wrote a blog post and it disappeared before I could share it. Which is funny becasue that is exactly what I did. So now I'm annoyed because I don't want to rewrite what I had. Major points in 3, 2, 1....

A lot has happened

A lot of good

I started grad school

A is and has been back in AMERICA (bless!) 

We saw each other, it was pure magic (tears) 

I started Grad school (double bless!) 

I'm on disability (better than I thought it would be) 

This project went on the back burner for a few reasons, but I am back in action. So much to update and such a lovely story to continue sharing. To be continued.....